Life's in prison when you're in love alone.

Maybe this is a serious love post. Maybe not.

I guess you should all know that I have an ex only. Yes, that's only one. A veeery serious one. At a young age, what d'you expect? Really? I don't know how I'm able to express this with such witty remarks since I'm not that good at revealing myself.

Okay... Maybe I'm doing this because it's near September 10, 2010. It's the date that we should celebrate our first anniversary. As a girl who's very in love in retrospect, I really memorized all the dates that is very memorable. That should be my gift for our 5th monthsary -- the enlisted dates and the like, reminiscing -- but I'll tell the story after that.

Maybe only a few knows the real story that happened between me and my ex. But I'm jotting this down to foreshadow all those memories with him.

It all started when I was a Sophomore student and you were all Freshies. I thought that you were Roscoe and I didn't give a damn about them boys back then. With all those academic shiz, how am I supposed to include them? We eventually became texting buds. And it all happened like things are in fast forward motion. You were giving sweet comments and I started giving them back to you. Up until those days when we were texting like crazy. But i found out that you have a girlfriend in Balic-Balic. Same place where you lived. Her name's Yvonne. And I want to wrestle her and give her all the utmost pain I could relish upon. But no, I can't. She was the priority. I was the option.

And then I remembered, that was November 03 and I said the most powerful word that a guy would go gaga for, a "Yes." I didn't saw your face twist in a happy curve. Instead, you remained calm and started apologizing for what you did to me concerning Yvonne. You said that it was all gone and I was a fool to believe you.

I've known you for being such a playboy and messing up with all those poor girls' heart. It's as if they're just toys and when there's a new prospect, somehow, they would just end up in your collection. I didn't really mind that first heartbreak you gave me because things weren't serious.

So let's shift to S.Y. 2009-2010. I'm now a Junior and he's now a Sophie.

After that painful school year last year, I managed to survive all the mischief that had happened. I met boys along the way but I didn't really saw their importance. And then, you were slowly being pulled away from my heart. And those endearment were gone with the wind. I moved on.

But July... We started communicating again and I discovered that you're still in a relationship with Yvonne. We talked and updated things about our life. And somehow, we have that closure again. So thank you, Y!M for giving us the chance to talk again. You broke up with her and you started giving all of your attention to me. But since I've moved on, I just joked and flirted, too. I realized that things are getting serious and I couldn't handle it anymore. And one day, you confessed. You told me you loved me and asked me if you could court me. I acquiesced. But at the back of my mind, I was thinking, "Maybe he's just playing again so I should play, too."

July-September. We were spending time together. Eating, mostly going to SM San Lazaro. And I told my friends that if it's okay to get back with him because I didn't really believe in love shits. In this case, second chance mattered and I realized its importance. I learned that people are really trying their best, exerting all their efforts that they could muster just to have that second chance. And I witnessed all of those efforts.

August 3. My friends told me that we should go to Lover's Lane and shoot a video there. Their details are lacking but I didn't argue anymore. When we were at the LLane, there was a man shouting behind us, "Angela! Angela!" I recognized the voice. I thought that my heartbeat skipped for a fraction of a second. You are standing there, holding 3 pieces of roses. And there were rose petals formed like this " I <3 U " I couldn't express how happy I am that time. And we talked at the pavilion and ate ice cream. That was the time that I thought, "Wow. It's like a dream. This guy is really serious? It's not in his face to take matters seriously." 50/50 of giving him a chance.

September 9. Maybe because of the date that people are saying "Yes" to their special someone. But I'm not one of them. My mind was made up that I was giving him my second Yes the day after.

September 10. My friends and I were seated at the swing on the playground and (you have a cellphone at that time) I texted you to come and meet me at the playground. I don't know what should I do back then. Eleni told me that I should form the Yes in those scattered rocks so I agreed. I told him that personally and yuuuh, we were a couple.

Days passed by and things are getting cheesy. Doi. But eventually, a misunderstanding aroused. That was before the day that our first monthsary should came up. And your friends were comparing me with the it girl at our batch. I don't like being compared to other people because I believe that I'm very unique. The problem was solved and our first monthsary!

I gave you a cap from Artwork since you were into fashion. And you gave me this bracelet with love on it. Lol. Let's FF to 2nd monthsary. I think I knew what was happening there already. My classmated held me back at our classroom while my friends are outside. Then I went out the room. I told my friends that we should just leave and go home. But I didn't recognized that they were holding something! I think the passage was, "Ikaw ang kaligayahan ko." Lol. then you gave me a bouquet of roses and 2 humongous chocolate bars. But I only gave you a letter and treated you at Cerealicious. Lolwat. And then you rode the jeepney with me 'till Tondo and you saw the outside of our house. And that was the day that my parents knew you were "courting" me.

I guess I shall continue this tomorrow. I'm really sleepy. zZzZzzzZ. We broke up the day after.