So stressed yesterday.

Oh, so I started and finished reading Harry Potter - Sorcerer's Stone yesterday. And it's Father Day, yet I only read a book. Don't start with me, I'm a good daughter. Yar.

I was out of my mind yesterday maybe because my mind's clogged with magic, magic and magic. I went to the shower last night and bathed even my hair when I shouldn't be doing that. I also left my contact lenses in my eyes as I was asleep. Luckily I wasn't blinded. Hah.

Of Celebrities and Illuminati's....

Bakit ganun? Parang ngayon lang sila nagbibigay ng fuss about it or months ago na din. Lalo naging trending nung pinalabas 'yung Alejandro MV ni Lady Gaga. So yeah, she's rumored to be an Illuminati. Napakinggan niyo na din ba 'yung reversed Paparazzi chorus? Malamang sa una nakakatakot. Dahil nga Illuminati -- satanic cult. May stars above at Lucifer pa ngang nabanggit.

Eh ano naman kung hindi sha naniniwala kay God? 'Yun pananaw niya e. Buhay niya 'yun. Chooooos. Pero, natatakot lang naman ako kasi alam naman nating lahat na never ending ang away sa simbahan at science. Oh, baka may problema nanamang lumabas 'pag nagbalik sa kinalulunggaan ang Illuminati. Matagal na din ata silang nananihimik.

Sabi nila ha, sa Angels and Demons kasi nabasa ko, Si Leonardo da Vinci, Raphael, Illuminati din 'yung mga 'yun ah. Kung 'yung mga symbolism pinapahalagahan niyo, madaming nagkakalat diyan tabi-tabi. Tulad sa one dollar, andun 'yung Eye of Illumination, sa mga MV ni Lady Gaga, nagkalat. Paminsan, cool din pinaggagawa ng Illuminati. Puro violence, gusto ko nun e. Ba't ba. Joke lang.

Basta ayun, fidelity lang naman mahalaga para sakin. Kung ano pinaniniwalaan ko, stick ako dun. Pero shempre, respeto na rin sa iba. Kasi hindi  naman lahat tayo pare-parehas ng pananaw.

Si Charice nga din daw Illuminati. Over over? Sige na, lahat na!

Pyraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamid...

My passion for Fashion!

Oh, I promise I'd be like this model.

I should:

• shed off some pounds 'till I get skinny like this. I started striking a diet last week. On school days, my food intake should be like this: 10am, our recess, should eat my lunch, 3pm/4pm: merienda -- iced coffee or anything cheap finds out there, 6pm: cereals/nothing at all.
• Dye my hair like this and perm it. If it grows back faster than the time I'd expected, God answered my prayer! Dear hair, sorry if I have to cut you short, it's really sofa king hot in the Philippines!
• start saving money! But since our bank's broke, only a little money's left for me. P450 allowance/week, I could save P250 pesos out of it. But my normal allowance is P600 so um, yeah.
• Recycle things! I could reuse it someday since the cycle of fashion repeats itself.
• I think that's all for now. Chos.

Guess what, guise? Someone very important from the past PMed me today!

I'm a happy banana! Haha. Uh-huh, uh-huh.

He's my first guy bestfriend. And I fell in love with him. Doi! It lasted for a good 2-3 years.

We called each other, "Tol." And he just PMed me with the word, Tol! Because I liked his status. Hah. Then we started conversing and catching up. I'm really flabbergasted.

A little background... He was my bestfriend's boyfriend before. But they broke up because of the girl's parents. And we're like peanut jelly & butter in a sandwich after that. Erm, I even remembered that in an hour, we'd sent 300 messages. Like hell, I miss those days.

It's true yknow, that when it seems that you like each other, something has to come and mess it up. And that something is his other gal best friend. She's prettier, sexier, smarter. So basically, he'd end up with her. I've known half of his life or maybe three-fourths or in between. But whatever!

We're still friends today and I'm glad we kept it that way so it may continue 'till infinity and beyond! So uhm yeah, that explains why I'm a very giddy yappy happy person today! Have a good night ahead of you! :)

College Forms, yo.

Oh, 1 down. 2 to go.

I passed, I mean, my mom passed my UPCAT Form already. Yay!

So yesterday, she went to UST to get the forms ( of mine, Eleni's and Romayne's) so that she can pass it to UP Diliman because yesterday's the deadline. And yep, she texted me this, "Grabe Gel, good luck sa'kin. Ang haba ng pila."

I was expecting that but knowing her, she'll get pissed because she has a short patience. But it's necessary so I guess she's forced to wait. Yar. She told me that she rode UP Ikot because UP is so big she could get lost anytime. And after making it out safely, she drove for Ateneo like Michael Schumacher. Chos.

She arrived there and it's the exact time that the Admission Office will be closed but she begged for one application form. She payed 500 pesos and oh bless your soul, kind woman.

I was so excited to see the Ateneo Form and it was so sosyal. Haha. I want to study there, like now. But my dad's wallet will be crying if ever I passed. Imagine 100,000 Pesos + other fees. Bongga!

P. S. My schedule for UP is: 6:30 am, Palma Hall, Aug. 7, 10. Oh, rusty brain, do. not. fail. me.

May bago kasi akong crush.

Note: Nakakatamad mag-English. Chos.

Baka pangarap lang. Yknow, hindi naman kami magkasing edad. Mas matanda sha. Student-teacher kasi sha samin. MAPEH Major. Chuck Bass. Chos, hindi. pero Chuck din. Love ko si Bass, anubeh.

Basta 'yung Chuck na 'yun, kamukha ng kaklase ko. Kaso, bansot 'to e. Naging crush ko lang naman 'to dahil pogi. Pero, ayoko ng ugali niya. May pagkamalandi e. Eh ayaw ko naman ng ganun.

Malayong malayo sa itsura ng ex ko. Pero may kamukha 'yung ex ko sa mga STeachers din. CL Major. Euny ata pangalan. Nagsubsti na samin 'yun si Sir Euny nung 3rd year pa kami, saktong araw ata nung nagbreak kami, pumasok sha sa room. Asaran lahat sa'kin. Kamusta naman nararamdaman ko nun di'ba.


Anyway, magaling si C sa Baseball. Erm, crush lang. Lilipas din to. =)

Bakal ng Juicy Fruit.

So we went to the dentist yesterday for a free check-up. It's free because of ValuCare -- a freebie from my Dad's company. Anyway, I inquired if I should wear braces/retainers or not. Obviously, I need one because the alignment of my lower teeth isn't proper and I have a deep bite.

So we asked how much it'll cost us, and the dentist said that it's around P30,000 - P35, 000. I think it's expensive because compared to my other classmates, it only cost them around P25,000 - P30,000. The dentist also wanted us to deposit the payment in half and in every other check-up we'll pay P1,000. That's not fair, my other classmates only deposited P5,000. Plus, the clinic is located at Caloocan, somewhat far from us so we're deciding if we should inquire to other clinics.

But I'm pretty much sure that I'll be getting one if we have our money back. Our bank's on a strike temporarily. Lol.

Basang Sisiw.

It happens when you don't have an umbrella when it's raining really really hard. It happened to me. Oh, what a lucky day. 

My day went pretty well, got a free Quickly from Sir EsDi as his birthday gift for me. I'll be turning 14 on July 2. 3 more weeks and I'll be turning a year older. Erm, I left UST at around quarter to 6, and it's only drizzling that time, so it was okay for me.

Yet, when I was to ride the third jeep -- the jeep that will take me home -- it started raining really hard. You know, bad timing. I came around running along Tondo market like a madwoman. I left my umbrella home okay, it's because I used it the other day so I left it on the ground floor to dry. And when I came home, my Mom and Dad started yelling at me, telling me to go to the CR and rinse myself off. I decided to take a bath instead.


Good luck to my body. Haha.

I should get my heart a little talking-to.

I've been setting my hopes too high again. *sigh* Like, some odd wall post made me fall in like with him. Again.
I'm stupid when it comes to situations like this. I hope God will give me some power to predict if a person's serious enough to trust.

I could really use a wish right now. Lol.


But whatever, why won't we give it a try?

Facebook Chat.

Okay, there's a girl who PMed me at Facebook and told me that someone misses me. But I don't know her! And then I looked at her profile and saw our mutual friends, my ex and some other EHSian too. Just two of 'em and I can't remember exactly who added me/her. Lol, whatever. She said that I should figure it all by myself then I just told her okay and perhaps she's just fooling around.

Hah. I don't want to consider what's going on my mind right now.

Ayoko magfeeling. Tsaka, iba iba naman level ng pagkamiss e. Di rin naman ako sigurado kung sino.

Ed Westwick.

"A GENTLEMAN IS AWARE, HAS PRESENCE AND IS ALWAYS RESPECTFUL. HE USES WHAT HE HAS FOR GOOD AND MAKES SURE HIS IMPACT ON THE WORLD IS POSITIVE. ♥" - Ed Westwick

Photospam. I'm sorry. I love him. No words can express how much I love him.

I have this thing for bad boyzzz.

Like Chuck Bass material. Oh noes, I'm swooning over him again. We should marry each other someday! Yes? Hah. Just a dream.

Erm, okay, down to reality world, I think I have fallen in like with two awesome strangers. The first one was my first love,  that's how I wanted to address it. Even though I'm still 11/12 at that time, it felt real. It's because he's my bestfriend and it's just sad that every girlfriend he had was his bestfriend. I think I was the exception.

He was a part of a gangster/fraternity. I can't even differentiate the two even if he explained it to me. He was part of the Crips family, the blue one perhaps. I even knew their hand sign! What a fool, Angela. I just moved the fudge on and fool around with other guys out there.

Back then, when I was a freshie-sophie, I was a complete stranger to the EHS family. Only a few knows me and notices me. Like I was a stranger or an alien from outer space. I was ugly, and now I'm uglier. Loljk.

But, on my third year life, a lot has changed. I meant physically. I think I lost some weight and I shed off my long long hair, I acquired contact lenses and new uniform. Like I was transformed into a new person - a much much better one! And that's when I met this guy.

I believed he was a playboy. But then he proved me wrong during our relationship. He was my first boyfriend, for Christ's sake. I think I was blinded by that fact now. He hadn't changed. He just stopped showing it, and then it came back to him. I mean, how could he erase his feelings away in one day? And develop a new crush right after the next day? Maybe it's as easy as leaving girls hanging in the air.

Or maybe, just maybe, love left us.

Flaws.

• I don't know how to dance.
• I know how to sing, but I'm not good at it.
• I'm fat.
• I feel fugly every time.
• I'm not the flattering type.
• I have many insecurities.
• But I'm still optimistic. Lol.

I just got this from Facebook. From Janica, specifically.

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF

1. I'm Angela Clarice Segovia Burgos.
2. I'm turning 14 this July 2.
3. And I'm a senior student. I was accelerated, okay.
4. I don't have a favorite color. I like orange, but not as a favorite. K. Lol.
5. I'm grade conscious.
6. I'm shy when it comes to strangers and some friends but when I'm with my closest friends? Er, don't ask. It's the exact opposite.
7. I love procrastinating.

8. I'm deeply in love with Frozen Yogurts and BBQ-Flavored Popcorn.

9. You can find me jotting down my thoughts on Tumblr/Blogspot.
10. I spend my time online so I guess that makes my cellphone a waste.

NINE THINGS YOU’VE THOUGHT ABOUT RECENTLY

1. Transferring to Blogspot.
2. Understanding by Design.
3. Lady Gaga's MV of Alejandro.
4. Tasks and procrastinating.
5. Independence Day.
6. My hair. I want it to grow super long again so I can curl it.
7. Candy Mag's June Issue
8. In-likes? Not.
9. College Application Forms.

EIGHT WAYS TO WIN YOUR HEART

1. You hafta be a boy, of course. Not gay! No, srsly.
2. I should be his last girl. Lol.
3. When I'm with you, I should be the more fashionable one.
4. Definitely not a playboy.
5. Will love me forever.
6. You should understand what I'm trying to say because half of the time, I'm slurring.
7. You should always be there.
8. Shouldn't expect for me to his ideal girl. Instead, will treat me as the most unique one he has ever loved in his entire life.

^ No seven blahs?

SIX THINGS TO DO BEFORE YOU GO TO BED.

1. Pray the rosary.
2. Recall things.
3. Remove contact lenses. Doi.
4. Set the alarm clock.
5. Hug my pillow.
6. Shut my eyes.

FIVE THINGS YOU WISH YOU COULD SAY TO FIVE DIFFERENT PEOPLE RIGHT THIS VERY MOMENT.

1. Dear God, thank you for everything!

2. Mokka, is there something wrong? I still love you.
3. Teachers, why won't you move the deadlines of other Performance Tasks? I'd appreciate 'em bigtime!
4. Kelvin and the gang, Fuck you for electing me as the Vice President of Pax Romana. I was not expecting that. I don't know how to manage people. SRSLY!
5. Mr. M/Mr. S, I'm inlike with you two. <3

FOUR THINGS YOU’RE DOING RIGHT NOW.

1. Answering this.
2. Downloading DavidArchie's album.
3. Blogging.
4. Backreading.


THREE THINGS YOU’RE SCARED OF

1. Ghosts.
2. Falling.
3. Getting migraines.

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE

1. Travel around the world.
2. Be a Certified Public Accountant and have lotsa money!


ONE CONFESSION

1. My heart's not annihilated anymore.

Tumblr Crush.

The name's Mervdude. From UPD, I think.

Like, he's so handsome and all. Ideal guy for me? Erm. 

Oh jitterbug, one Mervdude, please!

iRant.

It sucks to be the eldest one here yknow! They're always telling me to do this, and to do that. We even hired a helper but it seems like I'm the one who's trained to be one. Especially every weekend, every minute is a designated order for me to obey.

Am I like a robot or something? I get tired also, just like everyone else! Fart you, you people.

I'm a willy mean sistah.

Background check first: We live at a 4-story house at Tondo, Manila. So basically, a big family is living there. But we're deciding to transfer in Commonwealth, QC maybe next year. Just only us: me, Mommy, Dad, Ryan and Jeana.

So, as the eldest, I have the obligation to teach my younger siblings but I'm too lazy! I haven't even started doing my own tasks. Lame.

And my younger brother, Ryan, just PMed me at Facebook and told me, "Ate, dito lang ako sa baba, may sesearch."

And I just told him, "Whatever. Susumbong pa din kita." And then I went offline, for him not to bother me.

P.S. I'm PMS-y right now so don't you ever bother me. Hah. Red alert, red alert.

Dead-Tired.

So, June 8 was the date wherein we officially started our classes. And I'm a senior student! Doi.

Okay, some things changed. I know they're going to be. It's much more complicated that's why I'm stressed. You hafta add the college application forms! And also that sofa king new implemented curriculum, Understanding by Design.

It consumes 50% of our grade so that's one helluva important aspect for us. We should work hard for it and will do because we're all grade conscious. We're fourth year students okay, you should understand us. Even them boys are GCs! They changed, grades matter to them; same as DotA. I'm wondering how could they manage to play and study and balance everything in between! It sucks, yknow. I wanna join them, and be part of the gang. Not.

We'll all be dismissed at 4 o'clock and 3pm as the earliest one. You should include CAT which'll start in 2 weeks time.

We won't have homeworks or projects, they promised that. But it seems like nothing changed. Instead, we're stuck here, we've got loads and loads of tasks to do. And today's my day-off. Hah. I finally got good 12 hours of sleep and I loved it compared to that short 7-9 hours when it comes to school days.

And oh, Happy Independence Day for us! :)

There's nothing much more to say, really. But there's way much more to remember.

As you all know, I haven't talked of love since last early May. I refuse to because someone's stalking my Tumblelog and I'm afraid he might misunderstood it in a way that I still care for him. Even if I still do... Okay, NOT!

So to you, whoever gave him the link for my Tumblelog, I shall sue you someday and I'll brand you with ambigrams! All over your body! I'm the missing part of the Illuminati. Hah.

Kidding aside, after whatchamacallit happened, I was too hurt I even promised myself not to look for other boys - temporarily. But, I was weighing things. If I don't entertain them boys, I'm left here hanging at some edge with one past lover. And for the love of all things holy, it's not bearable. Plus, there's no one to entertain, really.

It's summer and I'm single. I recalled that last summer, there were so many flings that didn't make it. What was I expecting, that it would last? With all these barriers, I think it wouldn't so there ya go.

But that's last summer, what about now? My goal was to get over him and prioritize some other valuable things. I'm pretty much a wreck. It feels like I can't survive but somehow, between those pessimistic approach, I passed through. I even matured, I think.

I'm pretty happy now. Although I miss someone caring for me, tells me that he loves me every single time I'm with him, hold hands like there's no one watching. It felt good that he's not a part of my system now. Like, studies first and college applications.

I'm not actually new here. I just made an another account. :)

Oh look at the right side, and you'll have the slightest hint of what's my life going through right now. Just the basic information you'll need.

I also have a Tumblr account. But, it's too overpopulated. I think. Some are only hypocrites who wants fame and lots and lots of followers so I might move here - where I can blog my deepest darkest thoughts.

I'll start sharing in a few.